Hmm Just popping in... will it ever STOP raining in NY? Like OMFG! OH and like... will my beta 2 version of Windows Vista just friggen download!!

Ok yeah we're already past the point - you know I'm bitchin. Blah blah blah, I just figured I'd write another entry in before I have to leave (18 minutes) and I'm not even out of the door yet - oh and that's right I get to drive - and moms in the car w/me. LOL!!! HAHAHAH - This should definately be an interesting one... she sooo hates my driving.

Err yeah anyways ... I'll pop back later prolly if not .. then you know my ass is of course >packing< - Ok ... that sounded soooo wrong. And right now I'm even too lazy to hit the backspace button.

Blah ... I'm off to the eye doctors - wish me luck ... I actually want green contacts... >I wish<


Laters

-Peach-

Omg - It's been so long since I've posted anything on LJ. Actually the most awkward thing I suppose, is the fact that I completely and utterly forgot about LJ I have been so busy. I guess it doesn't help either when you don't have many friends on either.

Then again things here have been so busy in preparation of Ryan moving here (He'll be out on the 26th). Also with job hunting, originally going to Massachusetts although a grand idea, I have decided it was best to stay here, especially with dad giving me 5 acres to build a house on. I can only hope that I can save up the 10% (when I move into the other house- again everything has to be done by the 26th). On another note, Elisha had discussed with me about the universe sending me messages as I was having a sort of dilemma with choosing where I should go. Sure it is still up in the air on whether or not I may in all honestly (in the end) be GUARANTEED the 5 acres. I just don't know *shrugs* guess it's one day at a time...

With that being said ... busy busy busy. I just don't know anymore, and sadly broke as I may be.... I can't even afford to think now.


-Peach-

Hmmm Not much to say today. I figured I should post something as it's getting a little bit (late) since I last updated my LJ. With that being said... I gave up the cleaning job (J's Cleaning)... after 19 bruises later and a somewhat damaged ego. I've decided I did what was best for me... as I have a little bit of self worth still left (which I'm sorry is a lot more then $7/hr). Sadly I need to find a job that works for me, and is what I'm qualified to do. This is aggravating... I really can't wait to move.

Despite that, Ryan's b-day is next week and I have to go job hunting tomorrow, as well as get in touch with Elisha either today or tomorrow. I feel like such a failure lately... I just really can't wait to be out on my own. But the process is scary. I guess look at the bright side... I can pick up my paycheck this friday.


Blah ... I'll write more later... there's nothing I really care to talk about too much right now.

I'm going apartment shopping via online. Wish me luck... yeah that's exactly what I need!


Tootles...

Not much to say. I'm extremely tired, however I got a new job today. The pay isn't much but it will suffice for now. Hopefully I can save as much money as possible for an apartment in Massachusetts. I haven't yet got to talk to Elisha yet to pick out some places. I plan on touching basis with her tomorrow. Ok yeah - I'm boring... I'm going to bed.


G'nite!


Oh and P.S. Lakers Vs. Suns - I will be there, well try to be *Zzz* *Zzz*

Just figured I'd pop in with another message for today. That of which is... Happy Beltane to all.


Blessings Be...

-Peach-

Hmmm

I'm going to make this short.

I got a hold of Elisha ... she apparently didn't get my email I wrote to her back in December. I'm planning on going out to MA @ the end of May. Possibly instead of working here for and trying to push pennies together. I plan on applying myself, which means a very good possibility of me moving to Peabody/Salem Massachusetts. Which would be nice I could definitely make more money out there... plus Ryan doesn't like NY anyways. So this is a very good possibility. Time will tell...

Until then... It's a new month... lets start fresh.


Oh and P.S. Zoey (another friend from HS) is moving to Beverly... so she too will be there in the close vicinity as well.

Oh and P.S. P.S. Elisha said if I wanted I could stay with her to get my foot in the door! Nice eh? Wish me future luck ... I'm thinking I'm going to need it!

So again another sleepless night. I firstly should begin to talk about yesterday, however what I really should be doing is putting myself on (track) with the events as they happen. But for now it is 5:30 am, I'm in the middle of Season 4 - Disk 2 of Sex and The City and figured I should write how yesterdays dinner went.

With that being said I was having major withdrawals... it was 3:50 pm I was not feeling well so my basic day turned into a basic off and on nap with the occasional 2 Aleves' - which ended up for the grand finale that I had decided I wasn't going to go out with the rest of the family to Clark's Restaurant. I had procrastinated until 4:25 and then decided that since dad was running late and actually stayed late at work to help a fellow co-worker paint a unit, that I would get up and make myself somewhat presentable. This of course did not take place until I had once tried to ask mom if she'd just bring something home and I could sleep in, she stated her discontent and told me my father would of wanted me to go. This sealed the decision... regardless around 4:50 pm dad had shown up and we all were off to Clark's.

Dad and mom had took the truck - they both had rode together. Rather then Jed and I took Jed's car (02' Ford Taurus) and Kyle and Eric had rode in the back. We later caught up with Nikki and Justin at the Intersection of Route 30 and 145 in Middleburg. The dinner turned out better then expected. I did not for the life of me really considered sitting next to my arch nemesis (the girlfriend) but was somewhat cut short when Eric had decided to switch seats with Nikki so she in turn sat by me. Silently cursing Eric into damnation, we later had got our food. We all basically had ordered steak ... Eric was the only one that had ordered his medium rare. Mom, Dad, and I had medium well done, while Jed and Justin ordered a fully cooked-charred slab of meat. Krista had a huge italian meatball sandwich with lots of mozzarella cheese, while Kyle had ordered Haddock which came with Fries or baked potatoes. We all had fries with the exception to Jed and Justin and well... Eric.

For appetizers we had Chicken tenders and mozzarella Sticks ... and of course our salads. The evening was good with lots of lighthearted laughs. Until inevitably it had came to the main course. All in all we had waited around 45 minutes for our steaks - not bad comparing it was a party of 9. Only when the waiter was serving he ended up giving Nikki and King rib-eye rather then her order of a Queen (which honestly isn't much different albeit a couple of ounces). Nikki not knowing had started eating, while others had waited for their course too. Only when the waiter had noticed the mistake the cook had mistaken the order to which Eric ended up taking back (his) plate from Nikki and the waiter gave her the order. We were all trying not to laugh, and it was even funnier when Eric whom ordered medium rare had got just that. About 10 seconds on one side flipped over for a continuation of another 10 seconds, it was still mooing. *Chuckles*

Eric had an awful time and did not like it all, although he didn't foot the bill and never got his baked potato - he could of simply asked for it to be cooked longer and requested his baked potato but instead choosed to pout about the incident. However going back home, it was laughter all the way, for again we had a lot of good memories well spent. And yes karma does go around...

</morning>

Not much to say... it is now 5:45 am... I had chosen to write my long lost friend from High School. Elisha had graduated at 15 and ending up going to college @ Endicott in Beverly Massachusetts. She got married a couple of weeks ago in Boston and that is all I have heard about. I believe from a past entry I did write about her... however I did decide after today to send her another email (the last one I sent was December 26th) in hopes that she would find my email and write me back. Blah blah blah I feel like a broken record... but I really do miss her. Regardless of our past mistakes I should learn to forgive, for I do miss my friends from High School very much. *Sighs* this again too, time will only tell. All I can do is sit and wait for some kind of response...

-Later-

Today went well.

I didn't sleep last night, in fact I left at 5 am to do laundry with mom, then stopped at the store and picked up some cake mix. We got home and I gave dad a hug and said happy birthday. He missed his birthday card I had left in the bedroom. So then mom read it to him after he read the one I made that Jed had signed. Although mine, he ended up getting teary eyed which made me cry... I ended up hugging him again.

Dad always seems to have that effect on the majority of things I write. Especially ones that are heartfelt, and hold a lot of memories. After all it's the memories at the end of the day ... that's all we have left - and nobody in this world could ever take away from you.

Later on they proceeded to leave for dad's doctors appointment. I ended up making a 3 layer cake - yellow with chocolate frosting. I even went so far as to put pretty designs in it. Blah anyways today was also a good day, it was the first time I saw a squirrel and a bunny, yes indeed spring is on it's way.

We also received more DvD's from bestbuy in the mail. Currently I've been watching the movie "The War" starring Kevin Costner, and Elijah Wood. Gawd... and to think I've cried enough for one day.

Also, dinner is tomorrow. Dad wanted me to go -- I told mom I think I don't want to, she later told dad... and he wanted me to. So I decided I was going, until Jed told me he had a new idea - to invite Eric and Kyle, Justin, Nikki, and Krista. Oh GAWD! Happy Birthday -- I mean it's nice to do the family thing, however ... I really can't stand my brothers girlfriend, nor her table manners. I told Jed to bring me home some ear plugs. Yes indeed I WILL be needing them.

With that being said, I definitely couldn't imagine my life without my dad... for now, I try to make as many memories as I can... and cherish them a lifetime.

Hmm

My day went somewhat eventful. Next week I definitely need to get back on track, on things. I definitely need to search for a new job, and definitely a new apartment. My mother's characteristics are starting to show again, in that she needs to remind me that I'm (her problem). Why can't she just admit it and be more like I'm her (mistake). With that being said, I've chosen to ignore her, and told her whenever she feels like she needs to have some quick-witted-retort (whenever she deems I'm incapable of doing something myself)that we'd just get into a big argument about it. I would much rather just ignore her b.s. then to subject myself into anymore useless nonsense. To which she didn't like ...

So top off the (cake) today. Tomorrow is my fathers birthday. I asked my brother Jed if he would like to go to Clarks and take dad out on a surprise birthday! They love Clarks, if nobody is familiar with the restaurant. It is located in Gilboa on route 990V, it is more of a hunting lodge/bar/restaurant in one type deal. But it's perfectly secluded and includes a lot of historical if not sentimental value to some of the older generations from that location. Needless to say it was supposed to be a surprise. I had told my mother last week to which she decided it was stupid and pointless (i.e. it wasn't for HER, therefore she didn't WANT any part of it). Upon further discussion as (tomorrow is the big day). Jed decided to talk to mom about this, Jed has a future doctors appointment/surgery next week. Therefore he feels that if he is ever to get around again or worse, because of his condition and he is going under the *knife* he would rather (if it even came to that extreme) would like to go to Clarks anyways.

Jed discussed with mom, seeing as my father as well has a doctors appointment tomorrow that he is taking the day off from work. Therefore, Jed had told mother not to let dad eat to much for lunch. So mother took it upon herself to tell dad not to eat too much because he will be going to Clarks. Well WOW SURPRISE, SUR-FUCKIN-PRISE!

Yeah lets see... about 25 minutes ago I got out of another argument with her- again. Lovely ... yeah I definitely NEED to move. One day she will wish she had the close bond with me. And to think I remember one time I told her I wasn't going to wipe her ass when she got old and incapable to do so. She started to cry... fuck please. All my life I wanted to leave from here and I get trapped and feel like I can't go anywhere for fear someone is going to croak, and they will NEED me. Why deprive someone of happiness, mine... or my fathers. Even if it is a surprise.. it was supposed to be special.

Yes indeed America ...home of the free. You want to know what kills dreams ... it's not your status, it's your home and it's entirety.

Woohooo, so check it out - NO WAY you guessed!!??!?! Grrr ... yeah I hate when my surprises get ruined. Blah of course.. it's raining! Would've never guessed there!??!?! So anyways - despite the tiresome rain that seems to depress just about everything into a coma of sorts. I've decided to be chipper this late in the night(I don't know exactly what has lightened my spirits). However things are starting to be back in order.

My lil DvD copying went a hold when the new anti-piracy infringement took in affect. Boohoo, but I finally got SlyFox to work, and now I'm back in business HAHA- not literally. I'm sadly *sighs* running out of DvD space however, guess I could start a whole new shopping list. I actually ordered a couple more DvD's off best buy, and placed some order for my pops. He just ended up ordering just about every Kevin Costner movie. Hey - you need a hobby and something to spend your money on - sadly it's not me *shrugs*.

Bah! Anyways, Stephanie comes and picks up Sid tomorrow, she is supposed to drop of the first 5 seasons of Sex and The City. I have to get the 1st and 2nd part of the final 6th season. I would also like to get the whole Charmed set as well. Someday.... that too can go on the future shopping list. LoL ... I really have all I can do this week. I also checked out this British movie called "North and South" that I would like to get.. it kinda reminds me of an old historical romance novel that I always LOVE to read. YEAH I GOT IT - I NEED A LIFE! But hey .... I still want it!!!

Classes have ended and onto a next session hopefully next month. We'll see how that goes. I haven't heard anything back from Selkirks on the job I went for, probably that's another "I'm to over qualified for" blah, blah, blah. Don't people understand money makes the world go 'round!!! If that's the case... NASA can't help me. :-(

Hmm lets see despite the awesome and yet boring news nothing fantastic really happened in my life, despite the fact that my friend that I had graduated with (Elisha) she is also Wiccan. Had finally got married - last week in Boston. *Sighs*... I meant to go visit her back in August but my car overheated and I didn't make it - it was more of a (lets get home quickly type deal before my car decides to die). Since then I haven't really got to talk to her - I sent her an email and she still did not respond. Makes you kinda wonder ... whether 1. she got my email or 2. is MAD at me, and decided to ignore me. Either way I guess it's not my problem anymore ... but I still care about her, and wish her the best.
---- I still may email her again, just in case... I really do miss her. HAHA

Salem / Marblehead was beautiful by the way!

Okay time for me to go .. I spent enough time rambling on tonight. Ryan has left me a message and now it's off to the telephone to make my call.


Blessed Be...